Wednesday Night

i'm beginning to dissociate with names. No big surprise here really, after what was said about my birth name by the psych, I've come to step away from it almost completely. It's become rather foreign, I forget to respond to it at times and it just doesn't roll of my tongue anymore. Feels like I'm pretending to go by that name above anything else. And seeing as to how nobody calls me by my actual name at all, I haven't been able to use myself to the name being spoken by someone else. I feel rather nameless now, seeing as to how either version of my name is either dead to myself or doesn't exist to other people. Floating around like a nameless blob. Not too bad, but not too good either.